I love the dad that’s proud and confident to say that he makes the best tofu in the world.
I love the health consultant mum, the one who is thinking about everyone in the city 24 hours, 7 days and live to see the delight of people’s faces.
My siblings lift me up by calling me elder sister. I love this family. As long as I have you guys, I think I will be fine no matter where I go.
Previously, I couldn’t find how I should live my life, and I couldn’t even see a small ray of hope and I’ve thought countless times how this disease have shattered my life. But… this is reality no matter how sad. I can’t escape this disease no matter how much I cry, and I can’t turn back time no matter how much I want to recapture the past.
If that’s the case, then I have to start loving myself as what I am now. Because there are so many things that I have realized for the first time since becoming affected by this disease. Like…what a blessing it is just to have your family around, or the warmth of a friend’s touch when they subtlely lend a hand or how fortunate you are just to be healthy. Not all were lost just because I got ill.
The burden of disability that I am carrying, this me…is who I am now. I’ve decided to live with pride. That’s why I alone have decided to go to a disability school. We may exist in a different place, but from now on, I want to find light in every step I choose to take. That’s why I won’t ever think that something in my life will end when I leave this school.
So what if you fall, as long as you get back get up again. If you look up at the sky when you fall, the vast blue sky is smiling at you today.
Aya Ikeuchi
My Opinion:
I feel very contented with the fact that Aya came to terms with her illness and accepted it with graciousness and understanding. She is very brave as many patients who suffer from terminal illnesses cannot accept themselves for what they are and end up giving up on themselves or living in self-denial. We feel that people surrounding the patients and claim to care for the patients should treat them as equals even though they may have disabilities. The disabilities may impede these patients but this does not mean that they are inferior in any way to a normal person. They should not abandon these patients in times of need, as concern and love towards a patient is the most encouraging and motivating thing an individual can do for the patient. Some patients with disabilities may even surpass normal people in terms of mental maturity and capacity, they may not be able to beat them in terms of physical activities, but they can do as much as them, or maybe even more in other aspects.
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
My mind's unweaving/ 11:09 PM
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